Turning down ready made plans for a slight possibility...
Almost always slight possibility turns into darkness, suffocating thoughts, and songs on repeat. A strange form of self inflicted loneliness...
And so I wrestle with this reality... Why do I choose slight possibility? Perhaps, slight possibility is a promise of better company then ready made plans. Perhaps, ready made plans aren't as exciting as slight possibility. Perhaps, I need slight possibility to turn into darkness, thoughts, and songs on repeat... an excuse for me to be in that place... thinking these thoughts so often put aside.
Today I decided that slight possibility was worth waiting for... and perhaps I'll wait tomorrow as well... But at some point slight possibility has to lose the battle... I just wonder when I'll give in to the "ready made" side of things...
Tonight's thoughts accompanied by: Blackbird sung by Rachel Unthank, on Bairns
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