What do you do when "who you are" becomes an inconvenience? Something you feel is more of a hurdle then a help. When the way that you think about the world and your place in it is not all together helpful...
When you realize the source of all your anguish for so many years is just lack of self esteem. You feel you have never been good enough and therefore will never be. Quick to blame your self... to see the flaws in everything you do...
When your opinion is based on how happy everyone else is. When feeling like an inconvenience, running away seems like the best option. You are happy when you feel useful...
When you are uncomfortable with the situation or your relationship to the person you are with there is a barrage of apologies and self deprecation coming out of your mouth like word vomit.
When all you want is to have a good time... but with all the "stuff" going on above the odds aren't in your favor.